Okay. Yet again I have failed to post for another lengthy period of time.
Really I don't have any excuse... but I shall update you with interesting and not so interesting tid bits of my life. Everything goes. Life. Fashion. Art. Make-up. Hair.
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SEPT. 26th CLUB ATOM
TOKYO RAVE FEAT. MAISON GILFY -8th ANNIVERSARY
CLUB MOTHERFUCKIN' GILFY.
WHO IS COMING WITH ME?!

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. Been stressed and running around like a mad cow. However there are some positive updates I have.. for once.

★ Visa situation is all fixed. I got a one year visa instead of a two, but seriously I am relieved.
★ Husband got a job today. Holy shit. I am REALLY relieved about THAT.
★ Uh.. and that's about it. Also. I went crazy and.. I am selling all my crap. Like seriously, I took more than half my clothes and sold that shit to Nandemokanteda. What I can't sell will be trashed. And stuff that I can't sell anywhere and I think is too nice to throw away, I will offer up on my journal for RIDICULOUSLY cheap. Keep a look out. It's time to get rid of EVERYTHING and start a new. Wish me luck my LJ loves... <3

However, right now I am going to offer up some of my JSG stuff to my LJ friends and to whoever is interested.

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Hello all. I'm at work, but I thought I'd stop in to say hello.

Updates- Going to see DJ Baku, MSC, BIG JOE, Norikiyo, and a mess of other Japanese Rappers and DJs I adore this month! The tickets were a little pricey, but it's going to be one helluva an event. I am hoping I can get these Gilfy shoes I am pining after on YJ! so I can wear them to it. c :

Guess what this bitch boooought:

Somebody has a pair of sexy Dee&Jeez now. I finally have a pair of really nice sunglasses now. I have these cute Valentine's High ones.. but these are Dolce & Gabbana... I feel super fancy-town when I wear them.

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That's all for now! <3

As some of you already know. To say the least, my marriage has been shitty.
I spent a lot of time thinking, crying, and thinking some more until my entire head and jaw hurt. I came to the decision that if things don't improve that I will move the fuck out and get a small apartment close to the school that I work at.

This is also something I had already discussed with the school secretary, Hichan. She helped me find estimates on different locations and apartments that didn't require three months down.

However, I am not just going to up and leave without giving Mr. Ikeda any notice. Especially since he isn't working right now and is always at home, I'm pretty sure he would notice me packing up my shit. I also would like to give him the benefit of the doubt that he CAN change. If he really wants to, he can.

So last night I told him that I wanted to talk to him. We had a lengthy discussion about our relationship and how he is destroying it. At first he was a little surprised and angry. I guess I caught him off guard, but these days although our relationship with one another is still up and down, I have been more forward with my feelings. Whereas before I would completely keep to myself just to avoid confrontation that was inevitable anyway.

I gave him an ultimatum. Either you stop making me feel like a giant piece of shit, treat me like I am actually your fucking wife or even a human being for that matter, change the way you talk to me or... I am moving out. If you don't want me here like you say you do. Then I'm leaving.

And but of course, he started his whole schpeel on how I MAKE him say and do the things he does. I of course asked him if he even knew the heaviness of the meanings behind the words he uses. After five minutes of silence he said that when he says them they don't seem so terrible, but when he actually thinks about the meanings behind them, they are heavy.

In the end we came to a compromise, that I would allow him to start talking to me more about the little things that piss him off, and try to not to seem agitated by it. Does that make any sense? He's really anal.. about pretty much everything. He prefers to keep spaghetti on the fridge, while I on the other hand do not give a shit. About anything. I have no particular way I like doing things, I just do them. If I put a tea kettle on the microwave and he decides to move it back to the stove, I don't care. I guess these small things just really bother him and he doesn't feel he can say it to me. So it builds up and he flips out about something random.

So from now on, I told him, if something bothers him, just to say it. I will do my best not to move the spaghetti somewhere else. But don't overkill it. Wether not this peace treaty will last, I will give it a shot.
I also made him look me in the eyes and apologize for everything he's said to me.

I'm still torn up inside. If he goes back to his old routine. I'm leaving. He said that he really doesn't want me to leave. He doesn't really think about the word 'divorce' when he uses it so lightly, but I explained that it means I wont ever be in his life again and I'd probably end up with some other man. After asking him to imagine that, he diverted his eyes and inhaled deeply, "I can't imagine it.. it would make me crazy."

Well then knock your shit off. For good.

After that we relaxed a bit and watched Hannibal Rising. Seen it before, still don't think it's as good as Lambs, but sauteed brains before bed? Count me in!

Got paid today, gonna pay my bills. I really want some Gilfy shoes.. and they just put up the most amazing ones on the webstore.

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My head isn't up just yet.. but I am raising my gaze to the sky more frequently.

I have this strange urge to chop off all my hair.
I ripped out my extensions (except one pink one, because I've grown rather fond of it..)
and just want cut my hair.. short.. an a-line cut, like I used to sport in high school.
During that time I was having so many problems with my home life... but for some reason I look back on that version of me and remember myself fondly. Whereas now I despise myself.

I was a lot more stronger then.

I'm not sure if it's because I want change or... if I am just tired of growing out my hair. Been growing it out for more than three years now and it still only goes a little bit past my breasts. I wanted it to be down to my waist... but it's not going to get there. It's going to take another what... two or three years?

Now that I am working.. I don't have time to do my hair anyway. It's a frizzy wavy mess most days... which really is sad and funny in itself. On week days I work three hour shifts that start from 5pm. I wake up at 12. From the time I wake up I have to start making meals for the day since the tyrannical ring leader won't eat unless there is something made for him. He's so thin now, it's disgusting, and then I get blamed. Apparently it's because I am a bad wife or something, because I don't feed him (which I obviously do). However, amongst my coworkers I've made it perfectly clear that the reason I look so disheveled at work is because I don't have any time to make myself up nice.

I just want to become someone else... I don't want to be this anymore.. I want to cut off my hair, get a new piercing, and a tattoo.... and dye my hair something darker.





I think it'd be a lot cheaper and easier to just wear a sack over my head though.

First off..I want to thank everyone that wished me a happy birthday! : D

Next time I post, I will make sure to add pics of the loot I got away with on my birthday.
I got... That Glad News sweater ya'll saw, which came before my birthday, so I got to wear it on my birthday...oh and a giant black Glad News purse with chains on it. A Valentine's High dress from Nalan~, it is super cute and yellow and has skulls and rock-inspired designs all over it, I love it even though I have a weird aversion to yellow. I think it looks good! A giant Kuromi pillow from my brother in-law and his girlfriend.. A Minnie Mouse wallclock from his girlfriend's little sis... aaaand a super hawt RNA damage denim gray skirt with giant military pockits on it (I don't care if RNA isn't gal, GIANT POCKET DAMAGE MINISKIRTS ARE SO IN.)+ Awesome mule high heels with belts for straps.. from mom and dad. I made out like a bandit, spring here I come! <3

On my birthday Nalan and I went shopping all day at Arche and did some karaoke afterwards! It was super fun and involved tapas and japanese cakes! : D
Afterwards, I had the shittiest birthday.. ever. In my entire life, and last year I broke my arm three days before my birthday. To put it simply, I would have rather broke both my arms and my legs than have had to endure this year's birthday with my husband and his family. It was awful and I spent the entirety of it crying my eyes out. Seriously, the next day I was still crying and my eyes were swollen shut. I don't want to elaborate on how it was shitty, but in short, there was a fight. Everyone cornered me and actually told me what a miserable piece of shit I am, on my birthday... and pretty much that my husband should have married a Japanese girl. It was great. The end.

I have to pretend it didn't happen, just like every other time shit blows up in my face.
Seriously, I don't know if I am cut out for this Japanese housewife shit. First chance I get I am moving me and my husband's ass to America. I don't want to be apart of this demanding and subservient japanese family regime anymore.




+++++++++++++INCOMING SHOP UPDAAAATES!

On to work and business things.. which are important! And any of my LJ friends that are open to supporting me, it is much MUCH MUCH appreciated!!!

I got the promotional Myspace up for my business! Which will be called... FruGAL!
Much thanks to my partner in crime, Juicy, she helped me come up with the name.
Originally I wanted to make an eBay store, but for now I will have to make do with putting stuff up regularly with eBay and promoting the items via Myspace and my blog.

Anyways~ Here is the link my lovelies! www.myspace.com/frugalclothing
Please add FruGAL to your Myspace friends! If you can, forward the link to your gyaru friends! Everything is a work in progress, but I have been working my bootay off taking pictures, making graphics, measuring things.. setting up banking stuff... WHOO! It's been a roller coaster ride, but I am almost to the finish line!

I only have two pictures up on the Myspace right now.. but soon there will be links to auctions and other items available for instant purchase.. and don't you worry your pretty heads. THERE IS A LOT OF STUFF... and it is all guaranteed to be awesome and generally easy on your wallets!

Look out for JSG, Lip Service, Liz Lisa, Gilfy, Cecil McBee items, and so much more! : D
I love you gals! I hope you like the products I have gone on a restless mission to find especially for you.

Much love to you all!
And thank you again for all my wonderful birthday wishes! REALLY.. if it weren't for you guys I would have crawled into a hole and probably have never come out on my birthday.
You're the best gal LJ buddies I could hope for.

So! I am currently getting things in order to set up shop.
First I will sell some things on my blog, but I am going to be opening up an ebay store. So definitely look forward to that! I will be posting up some items for sale soon! Just to give you a taste of the shop to come in the near future! <3

As some people may know.. my birthday is coming up! : D
Actually I am feeling more : C than : D about it.

As my mother is in the hospital, she's really really sick. I don't like talking about it, and her being in the hospital isn't anything new. She has been in an out of the hospital for a couple of years now, and when I say in and out, I mean like every other month. Her health doesn't seem to be increasing, in fact it has been decreasing. I am very torn about the whole issue and rarely bring it up with my friends or my husband. I really.. really don't like talking about it... but it does bother me, as much as I don't let it show. My mother is the most important person in my life. I seriously don't know what I would do without her... and I am so far away. I can't even be there for her. That thought just rots in the back of my mind everyday.

I absolutely NEED, just for one day, to get my mind off it.

So now my birthday is coming up. All my friends and family are in America, I have very few friends here... and my husband forgot my birthday when making his work schedule. So he scheduled work on my birthday. So am I gonna be alone on my birthday? I dunno. I wanna change that. I don't want to be alone, I don't want my birthday to feel just like any other day. I want to have fun. I want to enjoy my birthday. I don't go anywhere, I rarely do anything except draw and clean... We don't do much on almost every holiday as my husband comes from a traditional Japanese background, while he isn't traditionally Japanese himself, he was raised in a home where they really don't celebrate holidays. So his thinking is a somewhat, don't know, don't care kind of mindset.

Trying to get him to respect and enjoy my American traditions has been a constant battle, and him being the stubborn Japanese man he is, refuses to budge most of the time. We did do stuff for Christmas last year, but only thanks to his mother. Since she enjoys seeing me happy (I am not always the bottle of sunshine I make myself out to be), she sent us to Disney Sea. It was so much fun.. but all he talks about now is how it ended up being such a waste of money. I think if we were doing better financially he wouldn't act so bitter about everything.. but I can't really change the fact that our income is low. I am trying the best I can though! Which is why I want to open my store. If I can help in any way possible it would help make my relationship with my husband improve.

So back to my birthday... does anyone want to join me in Oomiya? Ideally I would like to go to Shibuya, but it's far for me.. well not so much far, but the train fare is a little pricey (i.e. I can't afford to go). I know it's last minute and no one has met me in person before, but there is a first time for everything right?

Anyways.. I was thinking the 28th, my birthday, and Oomiya. We could meet up at Oomiya Arche (A big Gal Shopping Mall, the biggest in Saitama I think), also Oomiya isn't that far from Tokyo. Kind of early, my curfew is 8:30pm, since afterwards my husband and I are going to Tochigi. Spend time window shopping and maybe go to karaoke or a cafe and of course purikura is obligatory! Trust me, if I had it my way, it would be an amazing theme party fun night in Shibuya at some club dancing the night away!

Please contact me if you are interested in helping a troubled gal enjoy her birthday! (^.^)v
Also, I know some of my friends will be coming for sure. They aren't Gal nakama, just some nice fellow Americans I met through Japanese Language school a few years back. Really wonderful people, I love 'em to bits.



Aaaaand since my husband forgot my birthday... (=,=);;;

He got me this!!! : D ( ☆★☆ )

A stripey dolman onepiece parka hoodie by Glad News?! I couldn't possibly hope for anything better!!

I have been really in to trashy rock style these days (Sorry JSG!). I am sooooo in love with Glad News and I wanted this sweater so bad when I first saw it, but since we are low on cash, I gave up on it... but now it's miiiine! I am super happy.. I love hoodie onepieces and just regular onepieces for that matter, with a fierce passion. I really don't need more hoodies, but stripes are so in this Spring, and I have been pining for a stripey long cardigan or sweater for the longest time. And dolman style dresses make your legs look slim and looong! And I have kinda short stubby legs, So yay! ♪

Don't worry I still love JSG!.. but now it's a tie between JSG and Glad News. Swordfish is a sub for me as I don't really need more Swordfish stuff.

I don't think it'll arrive before my birthday tho, which makes me a sad panda. : C

Much peace and looove~!
♥Shushu

Wow.. it has been... a very long time... since I have posted.

I am super sorry.... everybody. Please don't unadd me! I will do my best to post more this year... for many reasons! I even updated my layout, therefore I should actually write in my journal. This is important.

So just to recap you on what the hell has been going on in my liiiife.
Most of it sucks.. but meh.. oh well!

So.. I got a job a while ago as a bartender. Yes, I can mix drinks. It was fun. But my husband didn't like the hours... blah blah... I don't have have that job anymore. Long story short.

So I went on a quest. A job quest. As I have had a long passionate desire to be a shop tenin for a gal brand shop. Went to interviews at some nice places. But.. didn't get any call backs... so.. I was thuper sad about it. : C

I will try again. My mother said not to give up and continuously send applications to JSG and some of my favorite select shops. Which I will. There will be openings in the future and I will demand that they hire me. > : C

So until then. I need a source of income, so I have decided to open up a small Gal Used Clothing Store. Which will be run by myself and my mother-in-law.

What is the greatest way to make the best out of the world's economic crisis? To be able to afford your favorite gal brands at wonderful prices!　(wow.. so did not intend for that to rhyme..)

I will be selling, bags, tops, skirts, jackets.. etcetera etcetera! And I will be offering brands like Tralala, Shine Be Model, Lip Service, Liz Lisa, Spiga, and anything from Hime Gyaru-kei to Ora Gyaru-kei and back again. Also, I would really like some input. As in what is affordable for you? What brands are you interested in? What sort of styles would you like? Colors, sizes, designs, anything and everything? Tell me what you are looking for! Because I will go on a never ending quest to find items for my wonderful gals! And of course at wonderful prices. Just remember, almost all items will be first come first serve, as usually I only come across one lovely piece at a time. Also, this isn't a shopping service.. I find what I can find.. and I promise everything is good. ; >

My husband also suggested that for example, if a customer were to purchase two or more items at a time, that we give free gifts. Like the current gal magazine of your choice, FOR FREE. Ageha, Egg, Ranzuki, Popteen. We will make sure to get what you want! Also, maybe even surprise gifts for first time customers, like cute accessories, stickers, maybe even nails! Who knows! What do you think? Would getting free mags with your purchases put a little sunshine in your life?


I find such wonderful used items in great condition! Sometimes I even come across brand new things! It all depends on where I go and when I go.. My search includes SEVERAL different locations and a supportive husband and mother-in-law with a car. X D

And if things go well, we are planning on expanding on used harajuku-kei brands, like Candy Stripper, RnA, World Wide Love, and even men's clothing.
If there are people interested, I would even consider selling onii-kei and gyaruo brands on my store now. But only if people are interested. Anyhow, I will keep everyone updated.

And this is part of the reason I have been so absent. I have been hunting for items to open up my store with.. and I found really great things that I am almost tempted to keep for myself. XD

But I won't! I promise~! ; D



Much peace and love,
Milky Shushu♪

Heeey gals! It's been a little while since I updated.. sorry I'm such a lazy bitch!... I had the flu, lame!
I haven't been doing too much. I went to Tochigi and helped husby's parents move. They are moving to Mooka, which is still in Tochigi. Right now they are living in Kanuma, which is close to Nikko. Mooka is closer to Saitama, so we'll probably be seeing more of mom and dad.

I am happy they'll be close, but the whole thing is actually kinda shitty.. because what happened is, my in-laws owned two houses, one in Kanuma, and one in Mooka, they were renting the house in Mooka to a young couple. That couple suddenly moved and the stupid ass realtors didn't tell his parents. So they were pretty much fucked, because they were using the money from the Mooka house to pay for their Kanuma house. So they had to suddenly just move back to Mooka, without any preparations. LAME.

But yeah, we've been helping them move, and last time we were there we helped them make a new drive way and cleaned all the dust and cobwebs outta the house. Next weekend we are actually gonna move all the stuff from the Kanuma house to the Mooka house... fun. (-,-) But it's okay, they helped us so much when moving to our house in Saitama that really, we owe it to them. :/

Ho hum... onto other things~
Watch out for my face on America's most wanted yo!!
I got a jury summons at my family's house in Vegas... and I didn't know about it... and by the time I found out.. I was two days late towards the check-in date. D: I dunno if anybody has experience with jury duty, but you have to contact the court at least 5 days before your check-in date and you have to tell them wether you can or can't participate. If you can't, you better have a damn good reason, because it's almost impossible to get out of jury duty. I DO have a good reason however, duh, I'm in another country. You'd think that America keeps track of that shit. But no.
So... I dunno what's gonna happen. I gave them my address in japan... but they may fine me.. or put out a warrant for my arrest.. LET'S ALL HOPE THIS DOESNT HAPPEN PLZ. DDDD':

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As for more pleasant happy things, I've done a little shopping.. WOO! Clothes... I haven't bought anything new in like... more than a 6 months. I'm so not exaggerating either. :C

Remember last post I talked about how Machan would buy me a new hoodie for fall? Well the one I wanted in particular was the blue and pink long sleeved Devil Mimi hoodie from JSG. DAMN that shit was a bitch to find... I pined and pined.. and searched.. because it's always sold out everywhere. The long sleeved ones are hard to find. LUCKILY I FINALLY found TWO on Mbok. The first one, the crazy batch wanted 12000 yen for it... WTF. Okay.. I know it's rare and whatever, but no dumbass is gonna pay THAT much money for it. And she even wrote on the info, that because it is her favorite sweater the price is high. Then don't fucking sell it! DAYUM. Anywho... so I weeped and pined some more...
FINALLY I found one more, but it didn't have a buy it now, starting from 6800 yen. So... I waited, and waited, and waited... a whole week, and put in my bid. I guess it's kind of a lot of money for it, but at least it isn't 12000 yen, rite?? :O

WELL I WINNEDED IT. YAY! It should be here tomorrow. P.S. Mbok has way more JSG shit than any other auction site, but almost all the sellers are gyaru with SHITTY customer service skills. I mean, I'm gyaru too.. kay... I got the lingo, I know... but fuckin' aye, if it's a customer, have some manners, shit. My husband is a really prideful person and he really cares about manners and mutual respect. Needless to say, he was super pissed when he read the mail she sent me about how to send her money. NO KEIGO. WTF. あいつはバカじゃないの？本当に思ったよ。たいしょちょ悪くてマジムカついた！！！！敬語使えれお前..ちゃんとたいしょしろよ！！！　（＞、＜＃）
So if ya'll is usin' Mbok, watchout, them bitches are barracudas! I'll make sure to take pics of it when it comes! <3

Also.. I won this hat off of Mbok too... OMG I LOVE THIS HAT. I've loved it since FOREVAR!! But after it went on sale on the JSG site, it disappeared off the map (And I haven't had any munnyz, just enough for cigs). Not on any auction sites.. nothin... ONE, just one, finally popped up on Mbok, and I battled. I battled an epic fierce battle... and came out the victor. IT WAS SPARTA, FOREALZ.

But yet again, shitty customer service. See, sheisty bitch was trying to pawn it off to other interested buyers behind my back for 4500 yen. She found a dumbass willing to pay that much and not knowing about any of this I put in a bid, max 4000 yen. OKAY... I'm going to go a small... small tangent kay.. If you want to sell your shit for a certain price... then just put a goddamn buy it now option for that price ON the auction. THERE IS NO MEANING TO HAVING AN AUCTION IF THAR IZ NO BATTLE!! AMIRITE?? CAN I GET AN AMEN SISTAZ??
Anyways, when she went to delete the auction so she could sell MY PRECIOUS to the dumbass in private.. she accidentally ended the auction instead!! With my bid still only at 3900 yen. So I was like WOO!
But THEN she had the audacity to ask ME if it was okay that she sell it to the other girl for 4500 yen. Okai.. wTF... YOU fucked up. YOU were sheisty. And now YOU want ME to give up MY precious, so you can make more money?

MILKY DON'T PLAY THAT. KAY. I told that bitch how it iz, NO she can't sell it to the other bitchfayse, and said I am gonna pay exactly what I won the hat for, 3900 yen, or I'mma report her ass. THE END. :D

I got lucky, so whatever. I have my precious supah rare, rare as a shiny pokemanz, knit hat. (*v*)
I LOVE YOU HAT!!!! <3 <3 <3 I LOVE YOU JSG!!! <3 <3 <3


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